Hiatus

I think it is time for a break.  Reasons are many.  I may return with some good posts if I have them.  I may not. 

All I can say is I love HOH.  I don't want to fuck that up worse than it already is. 

The Update

Sorry it took me so damn long to get this up here!  So here's what went down.  I just wasn't feelin it with meeting with #1.  I texted him and told him my hubby decided to come with me.  I did decide to meet up with TG for lunch.

We met up in a car pool lot in the country.  He hopped out and started kissing me and hugging me.  First, this was out of character for him.  He's a very very cautious guy about doing anything in public.  We talked.  We kissed.  We decided to have seat in his car.  We kissed some more.  We felt around.  Pants got unbuttoned.  Hands went down in.  I played with his cock a bit.  He decided it was time then to play with some pussy. OMG.  That felt good!  I knew I wasn't going to cum so I was winding up to fake one when I opened my eyes.  There was a chick next to the one other vehicle right across from us.  That made quick endings to that.  We put ourselves back together again for the most part and I went on my way.  It did feel absolutely awesome to feel that kind of arousal again.  It's been awhile.

I hauled ass down to my hotel room after that.  I had a nice visit online with HOH.  I was drugged up from a headache.  He was just plain tired.  We called it a night early.  I did have to take care of business from earlier in the day soooo.... ;)

That's really all I got right now.  I've been working so much I haven't even had time to do a load of laundry much less get in trouble.  Something will have to change soon!

Flood Gates Open

I swear they opened today.  I logged into my yahoo to find #1 saying hi.  He is along my travel route tomorrow and would like to see if we could sneak in even a quick one.  Intriguing.

I also heard from TG today.  He wants to do lunch tomorrow.  That sounds pretty safe.

I know I don't say too much about HOH on here but he's really the one who occupies my time.  He's on the road too.  We get to spend valuable webcam time together.  We've been looking forward to my time on the road tomorrow for a week.  He's really the only one I want to spend time with tomorrow.  I think I may ditch #1 with an excuse and lunch with TG is benign.

On a side note, I think it is super naughty and daring that I was on my computer chatting with HOH and had the webcam on and my husband was sitting with his hand on my knee most of the time.  That may be the first and last time I will let that happen!

Apathy

I'm really having a tough time right now in my own head.  I'm not feeling happiness or sadness.  I'm feeling nothing.

I heard from subboy today after some time of quietness.  He had a convention that he went to over the weekend with his mistress.  He enjoyed himself very much.  So much as to ask her to collar him.  Now this may not seem like a huge deal to many but in the lifestyle, it is more committing than marriage.  She said they'd talk about it at their next session next month. 

I have feared this day since I found out about her.  He still wants to keep his prior partners and he believes she would let him out of respect.  He would even have to come out to the "woman he's living with." (Notice he doesn't refer to her as his wife)  If he would want to do anything with anyone else, he'd have to get permission from her.  No matter what.

I think I feel a bit of sadness, touch of anger, but really I don't feel much of anything but numb.  I want to be sad or angry but I just can't.  I don't want to lose him.  I do feel that.

The Best Sex Ever

Now I know guys are hung up on cock size but many women I'm sure will stand up with me here and agree that it is the whole package that makes the sex range from just sex to brain engraving fantastic. 

JG emailed me yesterday that he wasn't in the last cock line up.  Well.  Woops.  I can't say he's the largest but he definitely isn't the smallest.  But his was the best sex ever.  Period. 

He knew how to use his tongue.  The grunts and groans that he let out were primal and erotic as all hell to me.  What I remember the most of how much he made me feel like a woman.  I wasn't the one in charge in the bed.  He picked me up by my ankles and suspended me in the air while he penetrated me.  He put me where he wanted me.  It was the best feeling in the world.  He also made me feel like I was attractive and was desirable. 

I hope this will do for you, JG.  I can't forget that night.  It was the best night ever.

All Good

So JG and HOH met last night.  It all went good.  JG beat me to the update on the previous post's comments.  And now for a promised post.......

When Worlds Collide

The day that I have had concern for is here. Jungle Gym and HOH are meeting. Face to face. In real life. They are meeting tonight. HOH doesn't know what I've done with JG. Not a lick. JG is suppose to keep it hush. I sure hope nothing slips. I hope all goes well.